Just stand there and look busy
Procrastination – you evil thing. You are winning the battle right now.
A confession: I can fill my days and nights with all sorts of busy-ness. And, it isn’t worthless stuff. Everything is necessary – laundry, housekeeping, cooking, grocery shopping, work (you know, for a paycheck), paying bills, cleaning out closets, and on and on and on.
And, I can always use that busy-ness as an excuse to keep me from my creative endeavors. The stronger the creative ideas that part of me wants to pursue, the stronger my drive becomes to do some time-consuming task that keeps me from creating (like bleaching out the garage floor, let’s say).
There seems to be a direct relationship between my guilt (yep, I said it) of taking time away from these tasks to create. That horrible, nagging voice in my head tells me that pursuing a creative life, creative endeavors is a waste of time when I could and “should” be taking care of all of these “adult” responsibilities that I need to do.
How dare I waste time on brainstorming or researching or writing when I have recipes to organize and laundry to fold?! Adults don’t do that sort of thing…
So, I’ve learned to be “busy” because if I’m not “busy,” then I’m wasting time.
I like to think that I don’t really believe this. But, actions speak louder than words. And, my actions say I do believe it, and whole-heartedly at that.
So, here I sit, thinking about outlining a book idea but seriously considering sweeping and mopping and putting away the laundry.